Friday, April 29, 2011

Be Still!

I'm sitting at my desk at work still in shock over the conversation i just had with my friend Tamara.
Remember yesterday when i mentioned that i had a couple of soul sisters. I have known her since i was a child.
Threw thick and thin, good and bad. The streets. The hustles. Cameos. Goose jackets. Public Enemy....our wars over Jay Z...etc There is nothing that her and i have not seen together. It would take more than  just Satan to get passed us. It will never happen. Period. We get into the deepest conversations. About Life. God. Religion. Spirituality. People. Friends. etc We have sat for hours upon hours all nighters many nights...laying on her couch or bed chatting. We get very deep. Deeper than any conversation i have ever had with anyone. It has always been that way. She always reminded me of my vuvoo (grandma)

I have seen my share of things and DIRT. Both in the church and out of the church. I'm not going to get deep about that. But today, Tamara and i were conversing and she asked for for "a particular church goer's number" After giving her the info, we got into a VERY DEEP chat. I gave her the heads up that i would be posting "her" email. Please keep in mind; this is not the average woman. She is wise beyond belief and has been reading her bible since we were children on a daily basis. She memorizes many verses and scriptures and will use them when need be. She can read threw you like a WINNER! She has always been the "one" to put me in check. Always. She fears nothing and no one but GOD! I can not remember ever at any point where i was right while she was wrong. Nope. Never. When it comes to my friends, people, or situations, she has always nailed it. I highly admire her strength and her push in life. But above all i admire her "no tolerance for fakers."

Read:

"Its really good though that you get to see them in that light, think of all the naive people that still believe in these frauds. Well that’s how child molesters move, they prey on innocent children, that are naive, they use tactics like they are the child's friend and gives them a familiar sense of comfort as they lure their prey. Much like the church right, Us/You being the child ( God) and the ever-wise Satan is the molester. He knows you are a believer so he lays a net for you in the form of comfort via your makers name, he brings it in the form sometimes of what you crave most, if your father's name is what it takes to trick you then he'll use and twist it, cause you were a believer, but now that you "know" God, it's different. People forget, Satan is a genius, he's no punk, God gave him power. So as you grow closer to God and begin to know him and understand him it becomes simply clear to you. You don't go where you think God is, knowing he's everywhere, NO you just remain silent and stay where you FEEL him, where you feel him, that’s where he'll be, so pretty much-everywhere you are. Now your no longer a believer of the church, you are a visitor. God has a sense of humor so its okay to visit a haunted house once in a while!

The church is like the mad house girl (not all of them in my opinion) u Neva heal there, They just give you "meds" Sunday to comfort you, you stay sick, they need you sick, to keep coming for your "meds" or the church will close down.
You know what I'm battling with right now, If this whole "loving yourself, put yourself first #1 isn't another brilliant lie of the devil? It's a selfish act really, nothing Godly about that. I get more satisfaction in my soul when I give of myself, that’s when I love myself most, is when I'm giving to others. It's also when I feel most in the likeness of the image of God. Like I said, I'm looking into that and battling it daily. If it is a lie, I think that one has been Satan's greatest lie thus far! Genius. God doesn't love himself more than us, how would he forgive? I'm trying to find one place in any of my good books where God tells me to Put myself first before others? To give to others one must be of love. Knowing and being one with God is the a guarantee of the love for myself, fooling me thinking I've got to waste time learning to love myself, see yourself first. I'm still not convinced. I started a love affair with myself the minute God came into my life, those liars. We all have our own truth in life to uncover because every man has a purpose, what I just learned which was a little scary actually is the majority of people in life, die never getting to find their true selves, or their purpose. Just stay close to God, take the crust out of your third eye, do not be like the majority that never get to use that gift. Be still."

She like myself, has seen it all. This email still has me.

What does it mean to have a relationship with God?

Thursday, April 28, 2011

She Is My Sister!

Have you ever had a friend who was more like a sister? Or perhaps wished she was your sister? I have had a couple in my life. Not many. I call them "soul sisters or sisters in Christ" Now they are very hard to come by and if you have one or two or three, consider yourself very lucky. My friends all play different roles in my life and none of them have anything in common with each other. I can count on one hand how many of these ladies i have in my circle. I don't by the way have ONE friend i speak to on a daily basis. The only people i speak to everyday are my kids and the closest to that would be my friend Snoopy. We have always been like that.

However i have a friend, a dear friend who i do consider "my sister in Christ" I don't call anyone else by that name. Why? Because for me to consider a woman a true woman of God is rare. I have seen so much and i also know what the Proverbs Woman is like. So when i call a woman "A woman of God" I'm comparing her to Christ. Now that is hard to do. I have met about three women that i can say that about. But there is one that from the moment i met her, she has been "my other voice." The voice that reminds me of how much God loves me. The voice that tells me how beautiful He says Elizabeth is. The voice that shuts me up in a gentle way when I'm about to do something crazy. The voice that shares with me in moments of darkness. The voice that i crave to hear when i want to cry. The voice that will share a scripture in a time of need. The voice that i highly admire and look up too. The voice that i want (in a good way) She is a strong, hard working mother and wife. She wears many hats and like myself, never seems tired. She is wise and knows right from wrong. Period. However she is slow to judge. She reminds me "that we must leave people to god and watch how it all plans out.....that God will always see you through trials...and is not the one who makes people do what they do....that God gives us the power of choice...and when people make the wrong choices....they will have to answer to Him" She reminds me of how much i have accomplished and what i have survived when thousands would have been dead or lost their minds. When i want to share something sacred or private, i call her. Because i know what she will tell me is BEST for me.

Last night at about 1am, she was the "voice" i needed. She always allows me to speak first and than she gives me what i need. There is something so humbling about this woman's voice. She speaks the way i imagine Christ would speak. She tells me to "walk with a gentle spirit. Kill people with kindness Liz."
Sometimes i just need to hear those words. I have always been the "mother" to everyone around me but at times i need a mother too.

I can't call everyone or the friends i have when i want to complain or cry or yell...because i don't have that kind of bond with everyone. Mind you I LOVE MY FRIENDS and SISTERS!!!! But it's just the way it is. Period. I do share with my friends as we share with one another but i have grown mature enough to know that you can't do this with everyone...you just can't.

I truly LOVE my sister in Christ "Colleen Miller" I thank God for her everyday. I pray that as long as i live we will continue to be close and support each other in all our adventures. I pray that God will bless UNIQUE (Our Program) and continue to use the three of us mightily (Natasha, myself and Colleen)
We are of LIKE MINDS and i pray that we will always be. We KNOW without a doubt that God is in the midst of UNIQUE!

Today, I'm so grateful for my friends and sisters. I will always try to be the best that i can be for my family, friends and sisters. I have also realized that not everyone will be there for you. That's ok.. Keep walking.

P.S
Remember, people come into our lives for a reason and a season...embrace the lessons in both.

"A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother"
Proverbs 18:24

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Break Yourself Out!

Have you ever felt like you were being held hostage by a thought or an action you have taken or are taking? Maybe you are unable to move forward because of these thoughts and fears.
Well, you are not alone. We have all felt this pain and fear at one point or another.

It could be the pain or forgiveness, fear, or feeling locked up in an all white room with four white walls and a room that is just a bit bigger than a box. We consume our minds with so much lies, junk, our past, thoughts of negative things and with being afraid to be authentic and real. We are afraid to show people our REAL selves. Our families and children barely know the real "us"
They know what we want them to know and see.

Do we even think we know "others"
We don't! We know what they want us to know. Even our small children learn to play tricks on us (in an innocent manner of course) But before it's too long they master these tricks....just like we learned to do.

What if we were to break out! What if we were to let it all go and just BE! Imagine our lives if we just didn't  care to pretend anymore and started living in realness? What if we stopped telling little yellow lies? Or if we just stopped pretending to like people that we don't like. Maybe we can just not speak to them....or wait why do we even dislike people at all? Come on, if you are anything like me, we judge people before they even open up their mouths. Why do we do this? Why do we start writing a book by coming up with the title first?

You may be thinking (just like i did at one point) "What is the point of me trying to make a difference? There are billions out there who are living as prisoners in their own homes so why should i try and make a difference?" Stop thinking about how your neighbour is living or how the world around you is functioning....START WITH YOU! Your home. Your community and your children.

We are our own PRISONERS!!!! Free yourself!!!! Today!!!

Whether you have 30 years left to live, 60 or 2....make a change today. Let's stop all this war. The war we play with ourselves! We are our own prisoners! It's time.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Time for Change!

Life will always bring us through turns and changes. Ones that will surprise us and ones that will enlighten us. But despite what change occurs, CHANGE is good!

We are so accustomed to routine and when there is a switch in that routine, we are not happy. We argue, we fuss, we curse and we do what we can to prevent the changes. Why? Why do we do this? I have learned to stop fighting CHANGE. When God is telling me something, i need to pay attention. I use to question things? Why? How? So on....but now i just remain focused and as soon as i feel like i want to question something, i take it to God. Because i know He is there for me and will not make anything happen that is not MEANT TO BE. For instance, if I'm in need of a new job and i don't get it, that is because it was not meant to be mine. Now there are things that are totally out of control; like when a spouse cheats or when a friend betrays you. God did not do that. But i promise you HE WILL SEE YOU THROUGH!!!

God sees the heart.

I have been craving change lately. Change of living. I have been trying new things and taking on new tasks. I have also made plans to move, and i will be moving May 15. I have made changes with my family (for the better) I have made changes at the wedding studio. I use to go in when i had too and now I'm there faithfully three times a week. My whole schedule has changed and i feel so good about it. I feel lighter.

When change is about to occur in your life or is occurring, roll with the punches. Take a step back and relax. Breath. Think and above all PRAY! There are small blessings in everything. Pay attention. You may miss something if you don't. If you get fired or laid off, use the time to study or focus on what your dreams are. If you loose a friend, think of a person you have been neglecting that is always there for you. Love him/her deeper. There is good in everything and everyone.

Prepare yourself for change because change is GOOD!

Monday, April 25, 2011

My Weekend!

It was Easter weekend this past weekend and i had such an amazing time with my family. It breaks my heart at times when i think of how much i neglected them for awhile after i got married. I don't like to think about it too much, because it makes me sad, but sometimes it is good to be reminded of how much i love them and would never ever do something so foolish again.

Your family knows best. I promise you that.

I split my time between my sister's house and then my mommies house. I slept at sis house on the Friday and came home with sever stomach pains on the Saturday. I was confused if it was the stomach flu or the food. We had fish and shrimp. I spent the Saturday in bed- all day. Yesterday i went to moms and was so scared to eat because i knew it would come back out lol. But I'm glad i went. Mommie took good care of me :-)


I spent the weekend being present with each and every individual. My brothers, sister, mom, in laws and the kids. We ate. We laughed. We drank. We watched movies and told stories.We went to bed after 3am     We were happy!

At the end of it all, familia is all we have. Do you ever think of all the time "we" spend on people on the outside...friends that don't matter and than we totally neglect the ones that matter? Our families. Why do most of us leave them on the back burner for a rainy day or for a time when we most need them? We have one life to live and we all know this, yet we just don't get it. The older i get, the more i realize that the same energy i spent almost my whole life on people that did not matter, is the same energy i could have put towards my familia. We may think we know them, but do you really know your brother, sister, mother or father? Do you know their pain or struggles? OK so they hurt you....so what...what part did you play? I know i played a huge part in my families pain. But we got through it. Communication is key. Talk, share and be open. Be vulnerable and you will see how magical it can be.

My kids have to know that family is FIRST! Despite where life takes them, i want them to grow with family morals. I'm determined....because when all else fails them, they will have their family. Whether they have the best job in the world or just a regular job, whether they have all the money in the world or just enough to get by....they will always have their families. I want them to have family dinners. I want their kids to be best friends with their cousins (that is how our kids are now)


We set the standards for our kids. We have the choice to be close with our families. Let's make sure we make an effort to do the best we can. The past is the past... besides it's all apart of your story. Your survival STORY!

If there is a family member that you have not spoken too in awhile or one that you owe an apology too (whether you did something or not) call her/him today!!!! Make amends.

Love one another. Respect one another. Be at peace. We will not be here forever. Live a life of happiness with one another TODAY!

Friday, April 22, 2011

My Early Morning Fix!

It is early in the morning and I'm up making a dish for my sisters family dinner gathering today. I'm so anxious to go and wake up Keeno to get my morning fix; coffee.

During my stay in Punta Cana, i barely drank coffee. Actually if i had a cup, it was a tiny tea cup and i don't ever remember finishing the entire coffee. I had zero cravings for it but i enjoyed a cup while I was writing every morning.

Here, the second i wake up, i want MY COFFEE! Get out of my way if i don't have it (lol)
I always had a feeling it was all in my own mind/head but i really got this when i went away. Here at home I crave things like chocolate, chips now and then...etc But while I was there I craved fruits, soup and healthy foods. It is so amazing what this climate and country does to you/me. I mean why do we crave these things here? Is it the weather? The atmosphere? I don't get this.

I really do wish we had nice weather all year around. There are however the benefits to not having it. We don't have tornadoes, major storms etc. Not yet anyway.

Ok about 20 more minutes before Keeno wakes up for work and gets my morning fix. For now.

What is you early morning fix?

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

My First Love & The Love of My Life!

I can honestly say with confidence that many people do not know me. I mean, they know me but they don't KNOW me. In general, I'm a very private person. I have been this way all my life. I guess it has something to do with my upbringing.

But there is something that EVERYONE does know about me and it is "the two loves of my life" Everything i do in life, is about them. I barely yell. I don't hit. I'm patient (for the most part) ...and before i make any rash decisions in life, I think of their well being.

My First Love- This MAN is and has always had the soft spot in me. He is stubborn at times (hhmm wonder where he got that from) ...he is extremely smart. He searches and investigates everything. If you ask about space, he knows it. If you ask about sports, he knows it. If you ask about science or history, he knows it. It blows my mind at times...how much he knows. On top of being wise, he is very handsome, dedicated and faithful. It brings tears to my eyes because i worked so hard to instill the morals my parents taught me, in him. I believe that my generation is the last to have the "ol' school lessons" and so i teach him the fine lessons in life. I tell him, "when I'm no longer here and... you remember these things, you will be alright." He tells me, "i can't live without you...i would go crazy if something happened to you." I obviously don't like when he speaks like this. Because despite anything i WILL go before him. God willing.
I have made sooo many mistakes in life. Especially growing up. I thank God for my "other family" I call them my "Jamaican Family." Because they were the ones to help me through it all. I was lost but through them, i was found. While i was out wondering the countries, they helped me with Keeno.
Keeno is MY FIRST LOVE. I don't think i have ever been in love before. I have come close, but to actually say I have fallen in love, I'd be lying. When i look into Keeno's eyes, i see ME! I see a young leader. An inspirational man. A dedicated boyfriend and husband one day. A responsible brother. A helping man. I see MY FIRST LOVE!


The Love of My Life - Just a few years ago (about 6) there was a void in my life. No matter what i did or who i was with, there was always something missing. I took a couple years for myself...and did some soul searching but I could never figure out what it was. There was just something missing. I thought maybe it was a husband (just like almost every single girl) I figured if i get into a steady relationship, i will have another baby too. I had always wanted a few children but life never permitted that. Keeno was already older. Much older. I thought of adopting many times. I actually looked into it. I started the process and then paused a few times. I guess the Lord did not want me to take this route. I felt so empty at times. I barely spoke about it, but my family always knew deep down there was something missing in my life. I was always the strong one. The leader. But my eyes couldn't lie. Make a long story short, i got married and gave birth to a beautiful baby boy March 25 2008. This was the day i started to live life to the fullest. This very moment, i was reborn. Every single day of his life is a joy to me. I remember laying in the hospital room just staring in his eyes for hours.

We named him Captain from the second he was born.
He is the love of my life, because he is the LOVE i have never felt. He is the love that keeps my heart going. He is the reason i know there is real love on this earth. He inspires me to be the best i can be. He gave me life again. I thought maybe "marriage" would fix my emptiness but it was not that at all. That void i had was filled from Captain. I have never felt empty since. Despite what goes on in my life, i will always be ok. I have 2 beautiful sons that adore me and when they look at me, they look at me with REAL LOVE! My boys are so in love with me. I have got to be the luckiest woman in the world. Plus I'm even luckier with a third son, my foster son.

There are certain things i just don't need for anymore. I don't need a man to tell me I'm beautiful. I don't need company around me to feel wanted or loved. I don't have any space at all for false friends. I don't take any time at all away from my kids to be in company outside of work related company. The friends I have now, I will have forever. All the decisions i make are based on the well being of my boys!
God i wish it was always like this. I got to this point through trial and tribulation.

I know God is watching over us. I know this. If i were to write down each time i knew God was standing there with me...i would not have enough paper or there would be no space on this blog.. We are so blessed and protected. If there is something we need, God provides. Now don't get me wrong here, if God does not provide, than i know He does not think we need it. I'm mature enough to move on.

I have learned to listen to Gods voice. I have learned to be obedient. I have grown to a mature place in my life to know that I'm blessed and will always be...because i have TWO loves in my life that will always love me. We have been through hell and back and back again, but through it all, God is on our side. It is NOT about how many times you go to church in a week, it is about WHAT ARE YOU DOING WHEN YOUR NOT IN CHURCH? It is not about how much money you give in your tithing envelope? Are you giving with your own selfish purpose? So many people have this all twisted. I may go to church once a week or twice a month, but everywhere i go, God goes with me. He is in my heart and in my body. If no one else sees me, HE DOES!!! There is no hiding with Him.

When you pray, what do you ask for?

Do we have any idea what LOVE is? Love is God! God is LOVE. Saying you love someone, you better be able to compare that person to GOD!

Yes, i had a few things on my chest this morning, that i needed to get off. Ok....i feel better. Thank God for BLOGGING! Ha!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Kick Your Pain In The Butt!

I have been thinking real hard whether to post this or not. After reading an email from a friend of mine, I decided to post.

Have you heard of hemorrhoids? Or better yet, a pain in your butt.... Literally.

Although most people think hemorrhoids are abnormal, they are present in everyone. It is only when the hemorrhoid cushions enlarge that hemorrhoids can cause problems and be considered abnormal or a disease.


Although hemorrhoids occur in everyone, they only become problems in 5% of the general population. Hemorrhoids are found equally in men and women, and their prevalence peaks between 35 and 60 years of age. If you have given birth to a child (as a woman) you will be familiar with this. Most mothers have H...or have had.

There are two types of nerves in the anal canal, visceral nerves (above the dentate line) and somatic nerves (below the dentate line). The somatic (skin) nerves are like the nerves of the skin and are capable of sensing pain. The visceral nerves are like the nerves of the intestines and do not sense pain, only pressure. Therefore, internal hemorrhoids, which are above the dentate line, usually are painless. These are however the worst ones. They lead to major future problems.

For convenience in describing the severity of internal hemorrhoids, many physicians use a grading system:


•First-degree hemorrhoids: Hemorrhoids that bleed but do not prolapse.

•Second-degree hemorrhoids: Hemorrhoids that prolapse and retract on their own (with or without bleeding).

•Third-degree hemorrhoids: Hemorrhoids that prolapse but must be pushed back in by a finge•Fourth-degree hemorrhoids: Hemorrhoids that prolapse and cannot be pushed back in.


Fourth-degree hemorrhoids also include hemorrhoids that are thrombosed (containing blood clots) or that pull much of the lining of the rectum through the anus.In general, the symptoms of external hemorrhoids are different than the symptoms of internal hemorrhoids.

How are hemorrhoids diagnosed?



"Most individuals who have hemorrhoids discover them in one of several ways. They either feel the lump of an external hemorrhoid when they wipe themselves and note drops of blood in the toilet bowl or on the toilet paper, or feel a ball on their tush after wiping. Severe anal pain may occur after using the restroom. Symptoms of anal discomfort and itching may occur, but anal conditions other than hemorrhoids are more likely to cause these symptoms than hemorrhoids.
Hemorrhoids often get a"bum rap" for such symptoms since both hemorrhoids and other anal conditions are common and may occur together."

Treatment of hemorrhoids includes over the counter topical medications ....if you have any symptoms, please do not be ashamed. Look, I'm not at all familiar with these all these words or symptoms...however i did some research....and have come to this. I too experienced somewhat a thing or two after giving birth to Captain so I KNOW!

You may be thinking, "why is this woman blogging about this? Like hello....."

I know the feeling of this pain and i also know that many women suffer with this problem. If you have any questions, please contact a specialist. Your doctor. A specialist. This could lead to a major surgical problem so PLEASE go and seek help if you think you have a problem.

XOXOXO

Monday, April 18, 2011

Our Many Faces!


An ego that wants something from another-will usually play some kind of role to get its needs met. Some kind of gratification, be it physical or psychological. I would say people are usually completely aware of the roles they play. I can definitely speak for myself. We strive off of attention but the catch here is why do we do this? The source of all the energy we need is within us (God is within us), yet we go searching for it through our egos.

This attention is some form of recognition, praise, admiration or just to be noticed in some way.

Adults are like children. If they can't get attention, they behave in a negative way (been there-done that) It is like crying out in an action that says, "please tell me i still exist." This is an extreme version of a normal ego. Then there is the one of a victim. This ego seeks sympathy or pity (in some form) It is all about "me and my story." This person tends to be a complainer and never happy. She/He hangs onto their past. Be it yesterday or 10 years ago. They feel there is no life without that "story." Of course once you identify yourself with a story, you don't want it to end so you carry that story on and on. The ego does not want an end to its "problems" because it is apart of its identity. If no one listens to "the sad story" you just tell it to yourself in your head. You make yourself into someone that matters and that is all that matters to the "ego."

In the early stages of relationships, most people "role play" It is quite common in order to attract and keep the opposite person interested. During these stages we tend to think "I'll play who you want me to be and you'll play who i want you to be." That's the unspoken agreement (lol) However role playing is very hard work and these "faces" can't be sustained forever. When you start living together and these roles slip, what do you see? Unfortunately you will see the true essence of that person start to unfold. Layer by layer.


What we call "falling in love" is in most cases an intensification of our ego wanting and needing. You become addicted to another person. This is so unhealthy. What you are addicted to is NOT the other person it is YOUR image of that person. TRUE LOVE contains no wanting whatsoever.

You were born into your role. It is the role that others assigned to you. It was who you were or thought you were. Many years ago things may have been different but in the modern world, more and more people are confused as to where they fit in, what their purpose is, and even who they are. Is this a bad thing? No!
I admire when people say, "I don't know who I am." Because the truth is, it is better to not know than to act like you know (the ego).

When you accept that you don't know, you enter into a state of peace and clarity that is closer to who you truly are than you could ever imagine.

View the world around us if we could just "be" ourselves. Authentically real. Despite who we are talking to or interacting with, we are authentic and never different.
I'm going to try this. I will be the first to admit i have different roles for different people. Why?
I DON'T KNOW!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Smile.... And The World Will Smile Back!


I am home getting ready for a wedding i will be working at today. As i am sitting here reminiscing on a meeting i had with my boss and the Trade Sensation team, i keep hearing my boss say, " Ok ladies always remember  no matter what, smile. Even if you are feeling bothered by something just smile. It will make you feel better anyway. Well, she is RIGHT! When i am at my lowest for whatever reason, i just keep smiling anyway. If i were to show my internal emotions to the world, no one would want to associate with me (lol) I mean if you think about it. It works! You are giving yourself permission to feel better. Smiling is an internal thing. Mentally, believe you are ok and the miserable face disappears :-)))))


There are so many reasons why smiling is healthy. Here are a few:

1. Smiling Makes Us Attractive - We are drawn to people who smile. There is an attraction factor.

2. Smiling has the power to change our moods.

3. Smiling relieves stress - Stress can really show up in our faces. Smiling helps to prevent us from looking tired, worn down, and overwhelmed.

4. Smiling lifts our faces and makes us look younger.

5. Smiling Is Contagious - A smiling person brings happiness with them. Smile lots and you will draw people to you.

No matter what you are going through today or any other day, i promise you, if you keep smiling, you will feel so much better about yourself and others. You may be thinking, "why would i smile if i don't feel like it" I understand. But i have been through hell and back since childhood and i get asked often "Liz how do you do it? You just keep on going" I promise you, there are days where i would love to strangle somebody or something lol...but i remind myself of what i have that thousands if not millions do not have. My health. My children. My sanity. My legs, arms, senses. My home. My clothing and job. I can sit here and keep typing but I'm sure you get my point.

We tend to stress the small stuff. When i say small stuff i mean things that only God has control of. broken relationships, work problems, family issues, financial stress, health crisis....just give it all to him...Allow Him to take control and pay attention to His instructions. Let it go and smile. Tell God "I trust in YOU alone and know you would not give me more than i can handle" ...and keep it moving.

Think of all the less fortunate children in the world (whenever you are feeling down) and what little they have. Think of how they still find in themselves to play, have fun and laugh when all they have eaten for the day is a bowl of rice. We have every reason in the world to be filled with joy and laughter. 

I have never thought of suicide or fallen into a deep depression. I'm not kidding you when i say NEVER. Although I understand people who do and have known many who have. It is not easy dealing with depression. All i can say is, my only key to this is SMILE and don't complain. Complaining brings down your energy level and you end up feeling terrible inside.

Did you know that animals smile? Have you ever seen a dog smile? If not, pay attention to when you are playing with a pet and you will see "the smile." Uuugghh so precious.
 
Try it for a week. Despite how you are feeling....smile!

Friday, April 15, 2011

I Will NOT Snooze Again!

I do not normally sleep in AT ALL. I'm in bed by 9-9:30pm the latest most nights. Last night Captain and i were still up at 11pm...which totally messed me up this morning. Keep in mind, I think I'm still jet legged (did i spell it right) My alarm went off at 5:50am and for the first time ever, i put it on snooze until 6:15 and then i did it again at 6:15am for 10 minutes. Captain was so beat and did not want to be bothered for his milk (which was a huge surprise) so i let him stay home with his brother Keeno.

I was not in a good mood when i got into my car and I'm at work totally out of it. I kept trying to figure out what was wrong with me and i finally got it. I'm tired. I rushed into work and I feel out of it. Not because i went to bed a bit later than usual but because i went back to sleep and according to Dr.Phil once you wake up it takes more than an hour to fall into a deep sleep. So why do we do that to ourselves? I mean what is the point of getting ten to fifteen more minutes of sleep? Plus I could not get Captain up and decided to keep him home, which i never do and than on top of that my morning coffee taste like crap. I was rushing to get ready because i did not have much time to drop Captain to school, only to keep him home.

I will never put my alarm on Snooze again and i will not rush again either. I do not like feeling this way at all. I mean what is the point? Just get to bed on time and wake up on time. It's simple.

Ok so what can i do to feel better? Hmmm well it is all in our minds. Right? YES!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

My Time Away!

As many of you know i was away with my son Keeno and my foster son Kirk. We stayed in Punta Cana at The Grand Paradise. I totally enjoyed my time there and there was plenty to do throughout the day. The boys enjoyed themselves more, as they were out and about all day and evening. I was in bed by 9..9:30pm every night (almost) The boys say i was a "Party Pooper" My answer to that was, "yeah i was once young like you guys"

We spent our days relaxing on the beach, walking, laughing and a bit of site seeing. Ohh let me not forget to mention our massages at the spa on the beach. I was so relaxed that i fell asleep half way through it. Kirk had drool on his mouth when he got up from the bed lol (joking)

Five mornings out of the seven, i woke up around 6am, had breakfast and then wrote for about half hour to an hour. My goal was to complete my book while i was away. I got nowhere near completing it. I wrote two chapters and that was it. Although two chapters does not seem like a lot of writing. It is. But i could have written a lot more. However, I'm more determined now than ever to get this book finished.

I will honestly say that out of all the trips i have ever been on, this was the most relaxed i have ever been. I had a good time doing nothing most days. I stayed away from "carbs" so i came back at the same weight i left. I had a few drinks which probably replaced my carbs (rice, potatoes, breads and fried foods) Although i do not eat much carbs anyway. I thought for sure the boys and i would gain weight as we were constantly eating, but they did not gain any either. Maybe it was all the walking we did.

The boys and i had quality time to bond and chat about "life" Not having Captain (my three year old) around was a bonus for them because all my time was focused on making them happy. The boys and i discussed how simple the locals live. The small things they valued were so amazing to see. We spoke about how materialistic we have all become living in North America. How healthy they ate and something as simple as a chocolate bar they viewed as a "treat" One they did not desire much.
I ran on the beach most mornings but the last couple i walked with an amazing young lady i met there with her partner. We met them the last few days of our trip. Up until that point i was alone with the boys. We walked and chatted which was great. If there is one thing i know now is; if i lived in a hot climate i would be super FIT! We barely saw anyone who was over weight (locals) The people in Punta Cana walk everyday all day. It totally amazed us.

Now more than ever, I'm focused on my famila and what i love doing. I love Event Planning...and that is what i will stay true too. If i could quit my job at the city and focus on events and weddings, i would. I will keep praying for that day to come. I love writing and that is what i will do everyday for at least twenty minutes a day. I love my close friends and realize that this life is nothing without family. All the time we spend on waisted stuff, we should be applying to our loved ones. One day, we will all be gone. Some sooner than others. But if there is one thing life gaurantees is that we will all DIE. I hate to put it this way, but it is true. So I'm going to value my time as much as i can. I will not rush. I will not get impatient with my kids , family or friends. I will not make big deals out of small deals (lol) I will be authentic and real. Humble and happy.

From this day forth, i will go on one "do nothing" vacation a year. It will be with my family and never again without my Captain. My goal is to go to a different part of the world each year. I'm encouraging the boys to travel together and enjoy their life. They were truly inspired by all the young people travelling as friends or in groups. University and College students all over the place. Thank God my boys are good boys (if you know what i mean)

You have been thinking about a vacation for awhile...so go ahead and book a trip somewhere. You can't afford it? Yes you can. Take 6 months to pay it off. Treat yourself and your family. You deserve it. Go ahead. Let me know how it goes.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

ATTENTION!!!! ATTENTION!!!

You are may be wondering where is Liz? Well this is just a heads up that I am away in the Dominican for a week with my son keeno and my foster son, Kirk.

We are having such an amazing time. We will be back soon. I do not want to get caught up with Canada while we are here so I will just leave you with this.

xoxoxoxox

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Stop Nagging!

So you think nagging will get him to stop cheating or stop going out, partying, drinking, cursing...whatever it is, NO it won't!

I have been apart of so many women's groups and have listened to women complain about why they nag. For some of them; it makes them feel better. For others, they think if they stop then "the man" won't stop whatever it is he is doing.

Ladies, look....you have got to stop. Trust me. I know this from experience. I was never a nagger. Ever! My ex boyfriends will sware to this. However, after a situation with my ex i started nagging. But i had reason to nag. I'm not saying don't nag if you have reason too. Just don't nag if you plan on staying. What is the point? That is waisted time and energy. I worked myself up sooooo much and got so stressed out that the only person i was putting through hell was myself. Why? Because i was betrayed. But that is not the worse part, i left him days after finding out what i found out. So the worse part is that i was no longer living with him but still causing trouble. Your probably thinking, "You had every right" Well not really. Despite the story or what happened, i still should have walked away cold turkey. Today, i would have walked away with a smile and said "Thank you God, for taking me out"

Nagging is the worse thing you can do to yourself but above all your kids.
It may not be about cheating. Find the root cause of the problem. Sometimes goals and expectations can not be met because there is a lack of communication. It is important that couples know what goals and expectations have been set for the relationship goals and expectations need to be clearly expressed. They must be specific, achievable and be time-measured. Not all nagging is due to cheating or a bad habit.

Talk without shouting. Raised voices can cause a person to immediately become defensive. When in a protective mode, the husband may shut down emotions and stop listening. I will seriously tell you that probably all men or MOST do this. Men and women do not do not do things the same way. He may retreat inside himself to get away from an unpleasant situation. It may cause him to have low self-esteem or to lash out in angry retaliation causing an escalation in the conflict. I have seen this with my own eyes. It is not pretty.

If you, like myself, are nagging because of a cheating partner, LET IT GO! Pray for his healing ( i know it's hard) and pray for the WOMEN/Girls he is with. But look at it this way my sister, "It is no longer your problem and the same way she/they found him will be the same way she/they will loose him" Wish him well. Pray for him and let it go!

FREE YOURSELF!
Live, laugh and learn to dance. If you know how to dance, keep dancing!

In a few years you will look back and laugh. Take care of yourself. Find yourself. Love yourself. Believe in YOURSELF and move on.

Love, Liz (Ms.Deva)

 


















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