Sunday, February 24, 2013
Give Me Wisdom....
(This is a picture of my son Keeno standing on a mountain in Portugal. I see the glory of God all above him here)
I got home from church about 2 hours ago (we went out for dinner after service) and as I was about to go downstairs I heard my foster son singing in his room and I thought to myself I know that song. Well sure enough he was singing a song we have been singing in the Kingdom for a few weeks and even sang it today ".....give me wisdom ... To do things like you do.... Lord I look to you... From where my help comes from..give me wisdom to see things like you do..." and let me tell you, my eyes began to fill with tears. Here is a young boy who has never attended church outside of special occasions and had no idea who "God" was, yet he was singing the song with so much passion (he is a singer by the way) and conviction. I began to think deeply about what the words actually meant to me. I mean when I sing that song I am asking God to make me see things like He does. Wow. Really. Am i? Are we really willing to do that? To see things like He does?
There are times, sometimes several times a day, when we are in a situation where we need wisdom to proceed with whatever we are doing. As followers of Christ we should be looking to the Lord for wisdom. He is the One who gives us the wisdom we need not only for a particular situation, but for everyday life.
Today I pray that I have a clear understanding that wether I may like something or not, wether It feels good or not, wether I get "my" way or not, it's not about ME at all. And all that God is doing in my life is to strengthen me, mold me and make me see things the way He sees them. Boy I got a ways to go BUT I'm going. In order for me to be affective in the Kingdom, I have got to see things the way he sees them. Not the way my emotions or flesh feels.
As Kingdom embassadors, our highest aim should be to bring glory to God (1 Corinthians 10:31), and this includes praying according to His will. First, we must ask for wisdom. “If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him” (James 1:5). In asking for wisdom, we must also trust that God is gracious and willing to answer our prayers: “But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt” (James 1:6; see also Mark 11:24). So, praying according to the will of God includes asking for wisdom (to know the will of God) and asking in faith (to trust the will of God).
I don't stress or worry. Why? Because God is in me. He has been since the day I was born. All of what I have overcome, we're lessons that God had me learn. I came into this world to complete an assignment that was laid out for me. I have come to a realization that had it not been for His wisdom and the understanding He blessed me with in order to apply that wisdom to my life, I would not be here today. I would have given up, killed someone or myself, became a drug addict, probably abused my children and would have been hanging out in some dark place or alley LOST! I remember being 7 years old and praying to this "God" my grandmother often told me about, "Jesus I hate him please make him stop hurting me and Suzie and mommy. Jesus I feel like I want to hurt him so bad but please help me not to hurt him because I really do love him I just hate how much he is hurting us. I know he needs help Jesus can you help him please because avo (my grandmother) says that you make all things possible and you fix people." You see, even at that age I knew that He could give me wisdom to see things like He does. I knew that no matter who hurt me I had to love them.
Ok I get it now. I've got to see things like He does. Thank you to my pastor (Somers) for being the vessel God sent to speak TRUTH into my life. Because truth has set me free.